After a long absence, filled with things (not all unpleasant) I’d rather not go into, I’m going to attempt to return to blogging.
This blog was supposed to be about me breaking out of my shell – and the last month or so, I’ve clutched that shell tightly. This will be more difficult than I anticipated. That is both frightening and embarrassing for me to admit – even on an unread blog.
The biggest thing going on at the moment is our return to the business of house hunting. We’ve decided on a side of town – reluctantly. It is our third of our top three choices, and it’s taking me a little while to let my dream of living in Riverside (since I left there as a teen) go quietly. Our third choice is more urban than Riverside and definitely boasts more bang for your buck where house purchase is concerned. Absent are all the things I wanted for a lifestyle (gorgeous wooded parks, quaint stores, libraries, etc. – oh it has generic mom and pop things, but it just isn’t the same). Still, I didn’t give our present rental much hope – I had to do the forced I love it thing through my gritted smiling grin…and now I walk around the interior of our loft thinking how absolutely stunning the sun through these extra large windows are, and how lovely I could make this place look if only I had the free reign of ownership.
Ah…
And that is actually where we are …. looking at homes, including our loft rental. In part, I’m also having to wrestle with how much of my old-age daydreams have to go by the way side. Not only will we not be purchasing our first home in Riverside, but it might not even be a home. I’ve craved a good old fashioned porch like you just don’t know, since I was a young girls sitting on my own grandmother’s porch. A right proper porch speaks of something to me. I’m not as willing to give that up – and in part, the elusive porched historic home minus structural damage and termites was very difficult to find. Had I released that mandatory item off my shopping list, we might have already purchased a home…and in Riverside, too. Still, I have to admit, the alure of zero yardwork in Florida’s gamey summer stink heat really gets me right here (the happy heart). And, going back to the windows, they really are magnificent. Rising HOA fees, not too terribly crazy about… and I’m trying to weigh that in against a couple of available houses from the area. Surprisingly, we’ve found two houses in really wonderful condition for around the same purchasing price as our mega loft set up. I’m trying to get DH to understand if we paid “HOA” fees to ourselves (in the form of savings) we’d be in just as good shape when it comes to having to reroof. Either way, I look at it, we’re paying for a roof when the time comes.